Monday, December 5, 2011
Monday, October 24, 2011
Country vs. City
That's right. Country vs. City! Which one do we choose??
It's been a tough year on the not so charm anymore! Ok, fact is, I made it that way.
If you follow my blog, you know we live in the Country. Out. Land of Nowhere. And most days, I love it. But last year most days I hated it. Truth is, I got a dose of "City", and I looooved it more. So without thinking and without rationalizing I called a real estate agent to come put our house up for sale and move us! At any cost, just move me!!!!
The place that I am calling the "city" is a town about 30 minutes from us that blings baby. It has a Starbucks on every corner, shops, restaurants, movies, concerts, you name it and the best part is the golf cart paths. You can take your golf cart to any of these places. Its a busy-laid back city, sounds contradicting, but that's what it is. The people of this little place are different. Well, maybe I am the one who is different. Whatever. So they just ride around all day, eat and shop. Or that's what it looks like. The houses have no yards, so there's more time for family, right?! The kids ride golf carts to school. How Awesome would that have been not to have to ride the cheese?!
But truth is, my family wouldn't be happy with all that bling. I raise 3 boys (counting Jason :)) and they love the county. They love the space and freedom. They love the outdoors. They love the solitude. And I love my family. So I've decided to seek reality, look from a different perspective and beg God for contentment. And its working.
I am falling back in love with my roots. So who knows where God will lead us, but I know for now where He is keeping us and that is ok with me!
Now, bring on the bonfires! It's Fall Y'all!
It's been a tough year on the not so charm anymore! Ok, fact is, I made it that way.
If you follow my blog, you know we live in the Country. Out. Land of Nowhere. And most days, I love it. But last year most days I hated it. Truth is, I got a dose of "City", and I looooved it more. So without thinking and without rationalizing I called a real estate agent to come put our house up for sale and move us! At any cost, just move me!!!!
The place that I am calling the "city" is a town about 30 minutes from us that blings baby. It has a Starbucks on every corner, shops, restaurants, movies, concerts, you name it and the best part is the golf cart paths. You can take your golf cart to any of these places. Its a busy-laid back city, sounds contradicting, but that's what it is. The people of this little place are different. Well, maybe I am the one who is different. Whatever. So they just ride around all day, eat and shop. Or that's what it looks like. The houses have no yards, so there's more time for family, right?! The kids ride golf carts to school. How Awesome would that have been not to have to ride the cheese?!
But truth is, my family wouldn't be happy with all that bling. I raise 3 boys (counting Jason :)) and they love the county. They love the space and freedom. They love the outdoors. They love the solitude. And I love my family. So I've decided to seek reality, look from a different perspective and beg God for contentment. And its working.
I am falling back in love with my roots. So who knows where God will lead us, but I know for now where He is keeping us and that is ok with me!
Now, bring on the bonfires! It's Fall Y'all!
Thursday, September 29, 2011
You're still the one I love!!
When I first saw you, I saw love.
And the first time you touched me, I felt love. And after all this time, you're still the one I love.
Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday
They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're the one I want for life
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night
Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin'
You're still the one that I love!
Jason and I just celebrated our 10 year anniversary on 9/22/2011.
Wow, did I just say it? 10 years?! Time sure does fly.
The last 10 years have been amazing and I can't believe what all we have done and where all we have been (physically and emotionally). In 10 years, we have bought a little house, on a little piece of land, in a little town, and started a little family. I love our little world and I am looking foward to celebrating many more decades together!
For our anniversary, we went camping, no Bahama cruise, no diamond rings (that's a later story), no bed of roses, just me.Jason.and our camper. It was so relaxing and so peaceful. We spent a lot of, much needed, overdue, time together doing absolutely whatever we wanted and it was wonderful. We played games, took walks, rode bikes, slept late, ate late... No one was screaming 'I'm hungry' or 'you gotta come see this'.
Just perfect!
Don't get me wrong, I missed my boys like crazy, but it was so nice to appreciate them again! :)
Raising a family, homeschooling, working, and just life wears us down and sometimes we forget what we have and how we got here. Its was great to reconnect and rethink our priorities. I hope we don't have to wait 10 years to do this again!
(our private oasis)
Sunsets
setting the mood
Then and Now
Jason Brewer, thank you for everything, especially loving me even when I am not lovable!
You're still the one I love. Till death do us part, I still Do!
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Titus 2: 3-5
I have a new job. I am a stay at home, full time wife and moma! Wow! I love my new title.
I have been at home with my boys for 4 years (Maximus is 8 and River is 4), but I haven't been devoted to them since I was also devoted to my job, working from home. I am so grateful for those years, the opportunity to be able to make an income, raise and teach my boys at home and the many lessons we learned together. It was, some days, truly the best of both worlds.
Hindsight, I wouldn't trade them for anything.
When I had Maximus, my mom switched shifts and we rotated keeping him. Looking back, I don't know how we did it. Those were some stressful years on all of us, but I don't think either of us would do it differently if we had to do it over again.
When River was born, it was time everyone lived normal and I wanted to stay at home with my babies. Since Maximus was only 4, at the time, I kept him at home too (before I knew homeschool was in our vocabulary). I wanted to spend my days with them. I, nervously, unsure, quit my job. But a few days later, my boss called and asked if I wanted to work from home. What?! HALLELUJAH! YES!!! And so with dial-up Internet, a brand new baby, and a mischevious 4 year old, I took on the responsibility. Needless, to say it was a looong, hard 4 years. And it got harder each day. My boys started getting older and wanted more of my attention, and the job became more demanding as the company grew. But I knew it was what I had to do.
I kept hearing God tell me to close the doors. And I kept saying back, 'God, you can't be talking to me, we don't make ends meet with two incomes, how would we do it with one?' And He'd reply, 'you'll find a way.' I would say 'But, God being able to be at home and make money too, it's a once in a lifetime opportunity, I have to make it work', and He'd say, 'I have other plans for you, ones with richer opportunities'.
I would tell Jason about my conversations with God and that He is calling me to stay home, and he'd say "I think you are hearing things".
So in my own world, one that I controlled, Maximus drew a picture for me and as most moms would say "awww sweetie thank you, that is so sweet", I burst out in tears. It was a picture of me working downstairs with him and River playing together, alone, upstairs.
He had no idea why I was crying. He took the picture back and colored some flowers on my "desk". This is not what a moma was supposed to look like, this is not how I wanted him to remember his childhood. SO to "fix" things, I moved my office upstairs! There. That should make it better. Um, not so much. My convictions of staying at home were becoming so strong it was taking over and I was starting to fear not listening to God.
A fellow homeschool mom brought a magazine called Above Rubies, to our group to give away.
I took it home and dropped to my knees when I came to an article called "I have God's permission", and in it, it quoted Titus 2: 3-5 (look it up). And that night I told God, I hear You and I am listening. I will close the doors at Wells Fargo and open them at home. I will follow You.
And so, it's official. After 8 years in the office, and 4 years working from home under my belt, August 13th, 2012 I am now a full time, stay at home wife and mother, living on faith.
I have been at home with my boys for 4 years (Maximus is 8 and River is 4), but I haven't been devoted to them since I was also devoted to my job, working from home. I am so grateful for those years, the opportunity to be able to make an income, raise and teach my boys at home and the many lessons we learned together. It was, some days, truly the best of both worlds.
Hindsight, I wouldn't trade them for anything.
When I had Maximus, my mom switched shifts and we rotated keeping him. Looking back, I don't know how we did it. Those were some stressful years on all of us, but I don't think either of us would do it differently if we had to do it over again.
When River was born, it was time everyone lived normal and I wanted to stay at home with my babies. Since Maximus was only 4, at the time, I kept him at home too (before I knew homeschool was in our vocabulary). I wanted to spend my days with them. I, nervously, unsure, quit my job. But a few days later, my boss called and asked if I wanted to work from home. What?! HALLELUJAH! YES!!! And so with dial-up Internet, a brand new baby, and a mischevious 4 year old, I took on the responsibility. Needless, to say it was a looong, hard 4 years. And it got harder each day. My boys started getting older and wanted more of my attention, and the job became more demanding as the company grew. But I knew it was what I had to do.
I kept hearing God tell me to close the doors. And I kept saying back, 'God, you can't be talking to me, we don't make ends meet with two incomes, how would we do it with one?' And He'd reply, 'you'll find a way.' I would say 'But, God being able to be at home and make money too, it's a once in a lifetime opportunity, I have to make it work', and He'd say, 'I have other plans for you, ones with richer opportunities'.
I would tell Jason about my conversations with God and that He is calling me to stay home, and he'd say "I think you are hearing things".
So in my own world, one that I controlled, Maximus drew a picture for me and as most moms would say "awww sweetie thank you, that is so sweet", I burst out in tears. It was a picture of me working downstairs with him and River playing together, alone, upstairs.
He had no idea why I was crying. He took the picture back and colored some flowers on my "desk". This is not what a moma was supposed to look like, this is not how I wanted him to remember his childhood. SO to "fix" things, I moved my office upstairs! There. That should make it better. Um, not so much. My convictions of staying at home were becoming so strong it was taking over and I was starting to fear not listening to God.
A fellow homeschool mom brought a magazine called Above Rubies, to our group to give away.
I took it home and dropped to my knees when I came to an article called "I have God's permission", and in it, it quoted Titus 2: 3-5 (look it up). And that night I told God, I hear You and I am listening. I will close the doors at Wells Fargo and open them at home. I will follow You.
And so, it's official. After 8 years in the office, and 4 years working from home under my belt, August 13th, 2012 I am now a full time, stay at home wife and mother, living on faith.
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